i love you.

Matthew Robert Wemyss. I love you.
You are the light in my life. I couldn't ask for anyone else to love me as you do. I look at others and I think about how lucky they have this and that. But then. I look at you. And that's it. I know that, anyone could give me every bit of clothing I wanted. Everything that I want. But I wouldn't think I was lucky until I have you beside me. You make me feel whole. You make me feel like me. I don't have to pretend. I don't have to change. I don't have to be someone else, for you to want me.
You know. Today I was sitting there thinking about my past. What I've done. What I've been through. What has been done to me. And I look back now, as if they were a different me. They aren't my memories. They are something that happened to a girl that didn't know what it was like to be loved. To be wanted. To feel beautiful. To feel like Lyndsay.
Thank you.
I love you. I can't look at another person. Yes, as all humans do, I look at the opposite sex and think. Hmm. They look nice. They look fit. They got good muscles. But I don't want them. The only person I want is you. No-one else.
You tell me that I'm beautiful every day. And I go home. Look in the mirror. And every day I feel better about myself. I look at the girl staring back at me and think "woah. She's beautiful. She looks good." This is because of you. Because of you, I can now look in the mirror and say I like what I see. I like my pudge. I like what I see. But baby. Look in your mirror. What do you see? I see a guy standing there. But not any guy. I see you. I see the guy I love. Baby, you are beautiful. And don't think anything bad. You've taught me to love my body. So I am going to do the same. Don't let anyone bring you down. Because to me. You look amazing.
 
Whenever I think of you. I smile. I look at my dad, and smile. Because he trusts you and likes you. I thank him for many of the things that I am grateful in my life. For my daddy to like you is something special and that I am happy about. Anyone can get past my mum. I don't really mind that. But my dad. My dad is someone that is special to me. And for someone special to me to like you like he does. It brightens up the rainiest day that we could have in England.
Do you know that I love you so much for trying to talk to many of my friends that you have never spoken to before? But you know, of all people, that I only want you to be comfortable with one of my friends. My best friend. And I am sure that you will. You understand my head more than anyone does. And that is something that you need to be proud of because I don't usually trust someone so much.
 
I will help you through anything. Anything that you need. I know that if you want someone to just listen, I will. I will sit there and listen. And after I have listened I will hug you. Comfort you. I won't say a word. I won't say a word. I'll be the friend that will stand by you. I will be your guardian angel. I will be nothing but what I can be. And all I can be is myself. Which I know that you love me for. Because I am myself and nothing else. No-one else.
 
I love you so much. Nothing can stop me. Not even if the sky turned green and the grass turned blue. I will always love you. You have become such a big part of my life for many things, and I will NOT let you go. Even if you do. You'll never leave my heart. I'll talk about you until the day I die. And when I'm talking to my friends I will talk about you. And when I will be sitting at home. I will be talking to you.
I love you. Nothing can change that. Ever.