Stupid. I'm such a stupid little girl. I'll know something from the heart but something will knock me onto a different road and that will be it. I will forget all the things I've learned; and I starting thinking too much. I start asking and answering my own questions. I start making myself upset.
I'm writing this to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being such an idiot. For going onto that road that brings me the stupid questions and answers. I'm sorry for making myself so upset and most of all; being the silliest girl that you have ever known.
I know you hear me saying sorry a million times, but it's because I'm such an idiot that I don't know what to say to myself or anyone else. I guess it's my way of saying; I don't want to lose you.
Losing you will be the death of me, BUT! I know I'm not going to lose you. Like we have said before; we are taking each step for each day. Plus we both know that we will always love each other. I will love you until the day I am six foot under. I never have felt like I feel now. You make me feel alive, loved, and happy. I know what it feels to love someone now; because of you.
I love you, and I don’t care if you say that you wouldn't trust yourself like I do. But I do; I trust you so much. Even though I ask you the most random and weird questions; it's because it's normal for a girl to ask them questions. No matter how much she can trust. No matter how much she knows.
Arrghhh. All I can say is that I love you; and I don't want you to change one little bit. Because if you did; I'd miss the you I fell in love with; but I wouldn't stop. You're my beautiful baby.
I love you.
