Expectations.

There are so many things in life that we want but we can't have. And to us; everything we don't want; is what we want. In addition this makes are more frustrated. And most of all; everyday each and everyone of us become more and more ungrateful for what we have because we can't get the things that we do want. It's just a horrible circle that none of us can avoid or get out of. No matter how much we try, no matter how much we think we aren't one of the ungrateful people. What do we do? I don't expect things. Though, in my head I will think maybe I will. But I'm not too bothered about it if I don't. I didn't expect to get it; so I don't feel any loss. If someone says they will get you this for your birthday; then say "yer that would be great! I'd love that." Even though they have said it; it doesn't mean that they will. It's easier said than done. And believe me; it's so hard to be able to do what you have said. That's why I have learned to speak with my actions first. If I can get object a. Then I will say I will get it; and then the next day. I will get object a. If I have seen, but cannot get. I don't say. There are so many people out in this world that looks for things that they haven't got. They hang on every word you say. And if you haven't fulfilled their expectations of you; you have nothing but shame written across your head. While they have selfish written over their's. 

Expressions can leave a mark on someone's mind. You know when you haven't done what you are supposed to. When you see that face of disappointment. Where they can't look at you. And when they do they can't stand it because they had all that trust in you. Just for that one thing. That object. That task. Those words. And you couldn't fulfill them. You're a liar in their eyes. But to you; you tried your best to get it. But they don't know that. 

What if we could all just get what we wanted. What if we could get what we said we were going to get. What if suddenly we didn't disappoint the ones we love. Because the ones we love are the ones we look up to. The ones we turn to it different circumstances. In the situations that they could help out best. Who you can trust. The one that has disappointed you; though you still hold onto hope. Hoping that they will pull the rabbit out of that hat; and surprise you one day. Maybe? Or the one that has pulled so many rabbits; you want them to see the cruelty and you hope that they didn't pull the rabbit out. But they pulled the carrots out instead. 

So many of us wish things that we shouldn't wish. I saw someone write their status (on facebook) saying; "I wish I could go back in time and fix that one mistake I made." Why? I wouldn't. Because if you changed that one little mistake, you change what you are doing now. Mistakes help us learn. But most of it helps us move on with life; its that boost button we've all pushed and now we regret it. But as I have pointed out before; that is life. And whatever happens; we have to get up off the floor and keep walking. Keep our heads held high. 

All of our expectations are high. And they lead us to become selfish. Something we all deny we are; but unknowingly, we all are.

There is no noise, only sound.

Music. It brings you to life. No matter what genre you like to listen to. It brings each and every one of us together. It makes each and every one of us feel like us; makes us feel unique.  Music gives us friends. Lovers. Closer to ourselves. If we were without music; what would we be? Who would we be? And most of all; would we living the life we are living now. Would we have a different life, different friends, different lovers. Would it be like that? How was music created? 

Whatever they created, years and years ago, they obviously didn't know the power that it would bring. They probably didn't know that what they created would develop into something else. So many instruments have been made. My favourite; the guitar.

The guitar is something that I would love to learn. Something that I would happily have and keep. Something that I could save myself from boredom. A guitar is one instrument that is always in music. As well as a voice. A voice doesn't have to be perfect, or in tune. It has to mean something. Something from the heart. Something that will make someone sit and listen and understand. And relate to. That is what a voice was made for wasn't it? Not for it to be judged. For it to be heard. Someone could sing in a perfect harmony, but have no feelings, nothing that comes from the heart. Nothing that means anything. But if someone came along, with a song that has something from the heart, that means something, has feelings. But couldn't sing in tune. That person would sound beautiful from what they are saying.

Words are such strong things. They can bring some happiness; but tear you apart. Though the ones that make you happy are because of who they come from.

Beautiful is such a beautiful word. 

Three words that comes from one person makes me happy. 

Music judges people. No matter what you listen to; you will be judged. If you listen to rap; they assume you're a 'gangster'.  You listen to r&b; they think you're a chav or some person who is up themselves. You listen to rock; you're an emo. And if you listen to anything else then you're not worth it. The book may look like something; but maybe just the words, the feelings, the story is completely different to the outside. And that judge is different. 

Everyone is different and no matter how we know someone they are always hiding something. And they could tell you but maybe they won't.

No matter what you do. You will always be you. And you will be unique.  You are you.

Do what you want.